Woot woot!

Bought some pretty sweet boots from CR the other day for only $17 :D

I was so happy. They're my size but good Lord I have to rly get used to them because the heels are about a whopping 3 inches! & the arch is insane. I'm so used to wearing flats so it's a huge transition for me.

I also got some long pretty necklaces. I need to really invest in buying more accessories than clothes. And I finally was cold enough for me to wear my comfy marshmallow jacket! Makes me so happy. I was waiting forever to wear the damn thing. I hope everyone's having a good week. Gunna go to bed now...night!~

My trip to Texas Thespian State Festival

was freaking amazing! It changed me so much :D I've never been inspired by attending a convention in my life before until I experienced to this one! I went with my school on Nov 18-21 and it was in Corpus Christi and oml the view of the gulf was beautiful. Although the weather was mostly cloudy, rainy, and cold, simply seeing the wide ocean, large seagulls and pelicans and overall scenery was good enough for me.

I sadly didn't win any competitions because I didn't register for anything since I was late on auditioning to be apart of it in the first place but I still enjoyed myself and supported my troupe. There were several plays that I saw...

~Pippin (FHS): This school did the abridged version of the play but it was still pretty good. I felt that the Pippin, the main character, was the only one who kept me tied in to the story...it could have been that he had more energy or that he look wayyyy too much like Robert Patterson O.o He was uber cute though!~

~Pippin (Main stage): When I had a feeling that this play was soon coming to an end I felt like crying because it was that good and what made it so memorable for me was a certain character in the play. He truly inspired me so much because he was, in my opinion, phenomenal! I honestly wanted to be like him on stage. He stayed true to his character by 100% and was completely fearless of messing up...or at least appeared that way.

~Ruthless: Funny musical that had several twists.
~Infancy: Hilarious to the MAX! I almost started crying with laughter at one point during this play.
~Women of Lockerbie: I almost started crying with complete and utter depression during this play. My school did this and although not many people were in the audience, it was definitely the most touching play I saw throughout the whole convention.
~Beehive: A musical that kinda took you back in time of the 60s, 70s, and 80s. It was funny as well but would've been better if their mics weren't so messed up.

There were also a lot of one acts, duets, musical groups, and so on that I saw there as well. Everyone did a great job. As for the workshops, I went to a lady named Mama Yeye who taught African Dance and it was soooooo much fun but was definitely a WORK OUT! Everyone had a good time with her and I felt like I was at a Nigerian party with all my relatives. Everyone kept saying how good I was at it because I was African and I said...yeah you're probably right XD haha jk! But it was fun. Spending about $300 for the fees, riding the bus for 8 hours on the way there and 8 hours back, having to catch up on loads of school work once this week's over for missing 2 days of school, and having me resort to borrowing money from like 80 different people! *sigh* It was all worth it and I'm glad I did it.

After attending this event with my school, I am pretty certain that I want to work on becoming an actress in the future as my hobby. & I don't want to be one for any extremely big goal like a television show or Broadway, but just to be good enough to where I feel like I can be any character I set my mind to and have it perfected to my best ability. Once I come to that realization, I'll feel satisfied. Can't say why, I guess it's because this is my main talent that I wanna work on perfecting and once I do it'll just feel amazing! I can't wait till the next play comes in the spring so I can audition. Wish me good luck :D

BlogTV last night

was pretty fun :D

Thanks for those who showed up. Me and my sis danced, I talked about my views on Asian guys & black girls, udoli (of course), and other random things I fail to remember. But I meet some pretty cool folks. I finally attempted that chubby bunny challenge everyone's been doing on YT and...well...check it out for yourself ^^;

Chubby Bunny :3 - Broadcast your self LIVE

Laser Hair Removal Treatment

Earlier this month my old manager contacted me asking if I wanted to get any 1 to 2 areas on my body treated with laser hair removal at her new job for training. I thought it'd be sweet because I hate shaving/waxing just as much as the next person plus my skin is very prone to getting ingrown hairs and razor bumps but mainly since it was free!~

Thankfully my friend/co-worker went with me since he was also asked to do the same so I had some support. Initially, I was planning on doing my legs but both he and I had to be at work at certain time and by the time he was done there simply was not enough time for me to do both of my legs before we had to be at work.

Sooooo instead we all decided to just do my underarms and the peach fuzz on my upper lip. It hurt like a b*tch but it was worth it in the end. Now that several weeks have gone by I can say it was not effective on my underarms but it was on my upper lip so now I feel less manly

I must warn you though, if you are dark skinned (black) they told me that side effects are more likely to happen but that's if they are doing it a certain way which they aren't supposed to so it's not too likely to happen. I've been meaning to post this a while ago but I never got around to it so that's why I'm posting it now. Okay toodles!

Thanksgiving *gobble gobble*

Hope everyone had a good one! Most importantly I hope everyone remembered what they are truly grateful for. I know I'm so thankful for several countless things in my life right now. My family, friends, my overall happiness that I'm alive! Haha but anyway, this Thanksgiving was different for me because my sister and I both decided that we would cook the food instead of having our mom slave in the kitchen doing it all by herself. In the end, we did a pretty damn good job because I can't say one thing tasted bad. Actually, all of it was perfectly yummy! I didn't finish my plate but man if I had more room I would have. Most likely we'll be doing the same for my mom this Christmas. She really deserves that much after the past few years she's been through. But I digress.

I got my paycheck yesterday and I refuse to buy anything with it until I'm ready to start buying Christmas presents...this is going to be really hard for me > < & I finally watched New Moon last night and holy crap Taylor L.'s body is to DIE for! He had to have had the best one in the entire movie...Robert...eh not so much. It's not that I'm not into skinny guys, cuz I am, but he just didn't have that "umph!" with his shirt off y'know? Haha anyway, I felt that this movie was more entertaining than the first one. I think they did pretty good with all the wolves, Emily, and the Volture(however you speel it). Dakota Fanning looked overly sexified but you could still see that little girl underneath it all. I can't wait for the next movie x]

Who am I?

Have you ever asked yourself this question before? Of course you know your basic information like your name/age/favorite color and so on but do you really know what type of person you are in this world?

How people view you in society either as a friend, a family member, a student, a co-worker, and so on?

Have you ever noticed while asking yourself this that you're unsure because there's so many different parts that make up who you are? Kind of like a puzzle. No matter how different one piece may look from another, they're still part of something that completes a much bigger picture.

My friend Mika and I were talking about how we both shared the same thing. She and I have several different kinds of personalities and ways of acting around people. I don't really fully understand why it is that way. Part of me thinks it's to please others by not having them feel uncomfortable with my wackiness. The other part thinks it's because I am simply unsure of who I am so I'm experimenting with different ways to act around other groups of people to decide which one feels more right. For as long as I can remember, I still don't know which one suits me best so I can run with it.

Something tells me that it's me just wanting to please others around me. I hate being looked at as someone who's being the wrong kind of crazy. However I feel like that is partially who I am. Not necessarily out of control for crying out loud but lovable, energetic, opinionated, and so forth. That is who I am on the inside and who I've always been but for years I've been hiding it and it's finally starting to drive me nuts to where I want to reveal who I truly am to the world. I originally had this goal to change throughout high school...heh, who doesn't right? I wanted to be who I wanted to be regardless of how anyone view me as. Someone strong, bold, and a role model to anyone who had to go through similar experiences I did in my past (too deep. I'll save that for another blog -___-;). Sadly, I'm not completely where I hoped I would be and although I know I still have a little more time until I finish high school, at this rate I can't see myself doing it because of my insecurities and low self-esteem.

There's so many reasons why I block myself from being who I really am and I'm sure there's several people who have the same problem out there, but my question is how the hell do you get overcome this? I seriously would like to know because there's so many people that simply tell me not to care what people think and yada yada yada but HOW? Without feeling embarrassed? Without feeling like you're some kind of freak? Without feeling like you have to constantly explain why you do the things you do so that they'll still find you acceptable? These unknown questions are just a few of the many I have encountered in my lifetime. If anyone can help, I'd like to hear what you have to say. If you can relate, I'd like to hear what you have to say. I just need people to talk to that really gets it and not someone who brushes off what I have to say like this is a phase that I'll eventually get over after a matter of a week or something.

N i g h t おやすみ~