Trip to New York (TEXT OVERLOAD!)

This post is pretty lengthy cuz I had so much to say. Sry!

I'm finally back home from my cousin's wedding I went to in New York, Long Island. First off, this was THE best most extravagant wedding I've ever been to into my life! Although I've only been to at least 4 I highly doubt any other wedding I go too will top this one! It was so gorgeous! They must have spend sooooooo much money for the wedding to turn out the way it did.

Well if you were following me on facebook you pretty much were updated on what was going on. We left Friday afternoon and arrived to our hotel sometime in the evening. Speaking of which, we had the most rudest cab driver ever! Before we even left the airport he showed signs of having major lip, but not to us, to a crossing guard! He was putting in the address of our hotel into his GPS system and parked in front of the line of other taxis behind us so this guy knocks on his window and tells him he needs to move because there is NO parking there. Our cab driver blew him off by saying he will in a minute and the other guy said if you don't move I'm going to have to call security. The tension was very high and I just wanted to leave and find another cab driver so we would end up getting in between some huge argument between these two guys. We just wanted to go to our freaking hotel for crying out loud! So after our cab driver refuses to move the car, the crossing guard begins to notify security on his walkytalky. Thankfully for us we never saw anyone get fined or arrested because he finally decided to move while saying "Fuck you, asshole..." underneath his breath, but still loud enough for me, my sister, and my MOTHER. to hear. Now I really don't care if someone curses around me cuz hell, I swear all the time, but it made him look highly unprofessional and what if we were children? Anyway, the jackass took forever to get us to our destination and was obviously irritated that we were so far away but we could careless. My mom ended up paying him $93 bc we drove for like an hour. Something told me we got ripped off but what could I have done?

We were at the Residence Inn at the Marriot and it was very nice :D I wouldn't go as far as saying it was a 5 star . . . maybe not even 4 but still I was comfortable and that's all I hoped for. Our room was nice but the only thing I didn't like was the loud ass air vent that kept waking me up every few minutes throughout the night -___-" Oh and of course Friday was the 1 year anniversary of Michael Jackson's death. I feel bad because I didn't dedicate a single post to him at all online but I was so listening to his music on the plane and reminiscing. RIP MJ <3 But on a happier note, we got hungry and wanted to order New York pizza! The receptionist recommended us this amazingly awesome pizza place called Cugini. So we order two larges (we really just need one since they were unexpectly so huge) and my God that was the best pizza that I have ever tasted. Dominos, Pizza Hut, Papa Johns, all a y'all don't have shit on these guys right here haha! I was stuffed.

The next morning, we were told they were gunna have complimentary breakfast so we woke up early to make sure we got some of that and meet up with our relatives who were also staying in the Inn. There wasn't enough seats to a table to hold all of us so instead we sat in the table next to us and meet some crazy cool people! The typical New Yorkers I would say. I learned a lot about the area by talking to them and they were so funny! After breakfast was over we ran some errands by walking to a nearby CVS to pick up some last minute items for the wedding and got honked at (smh...stupid cat calls) cuz my sister totally jinxed it! We I needed cream eyeliner and a cheap hair straightener cuz I didn't bring mine.

The hair straightener actually worked wonders however I stupidly got the wrong color of the creme eyeliner so it hardly even showed up on me since it was a brown >:X I still looked pretty damn good if I do say so myself :] We went home, got ready, and rode to the Country Club hotel (it was called something like that) with a super cool taxi cab driver named Junior. I will never forget him! He was our tour guide the whole time and I wish I took a picture with him but sadly I didn't think about that at the time. He told us how cool it was that we were going to that hotel because only the rich can afford to go there. I was surprised but then again not because it was  after all a wedding that my mothers relatives were hosting. & we all know they got BANK! We arrived there and there were doormen in cute little suits and gloves. It was so cool! We walked in and my breathe was taken away by the architecture of the building and interior designs. I felt like I was in a movie or dreaming. We took pictures of our outfits in the lobby here. This was my outfit :]

I know mine seemed a little dark but I liked it and my mom loved it so I guess it didn't matter. My cousin kept saying I looked like a black Lady Gaga though but I didn't take offense to that. Just laughed. My sister looked really pretty in her dress. Actually it was my moms. I think we might have overdone it because we had too many people hit on us which made me feel very uncomfortable but I'll get to that story in a second. So we went to the beuatifully decorated room where the actualy wedding ceremony was going to be held where they were announced husband and wifey!~

After that we went to this lovely room with all of these yummy yet unique foods.

I had calamari, delicious cho mein, fried zucchini, lamb, neatly sliced fruit (those always attracted me ^ ^) and so much more! I wanted to try everything! Unfortunately I didn't pig out like I'd hoped because that pizza from the night before and the large breakfast took up lots of space in my stomach. But I still enjoyed the different tastes. I thought that this was the last room we would be in for the night but boy was I wrong. I noticed everyone was moving to a much larger room down the hall and it was the most beautiful room out of all the rooms I have seen during my time in New York. The pictures sadly don't show the true beauty of it like I'd hoped but it's better if you see what it kinda looked like.

& there was more food! This was the only time I wished I threw up just so I could have room for more food! Ew that was gross...but I totally meant it! There was dancing, awesome Nigerian music, the traditional Cha Cha song, and speeches. What more could you ask for? Oh I guess a band or artist could of been there . . . but besides that what more could you ask for?? So remember when I said that guys were hitting on me? When my sister finally dragged me out on the dance floor, she, my mom and I were dancing with each other (doing the African two step as always to play it safe lol) until I notice three guys about my age walk next to me from the corner of my eye. I remembered one of them from earlier that night because he was staring at me like I was naked or something. But then again A LOT of people were staring at, not just me but my sister too cuz well I guess they knew we weren't from the area or something idk what their reason was but I paid to mind to any of them including him. However, out of no where he grabs my hand and starts to dance with me. My heart nearly stopped. I don't like dancing with guys...especially ones I don't know. That's just how I've always been, not to mention I could help but fear what my mother's face looked like when he did that because she doesn't play when it comes to me and boys. heh heh ^ ^; as I looked at my sister and my mom I knew I had to find a way out! My mom looked like she was going to murder him within the next milisecond so I told him I had to go to the bathroom. The moment of us dancing didn't even lats for 10 seconds because I felt so uncomfortable and nervous and plus he looked like the kind that "grinds" judging from the way he was undressing me with his eyes. Then there was this older guy who was talking to me and my sister, but mostly me annoyingly since he sat by me and it was clear that he was a little tipsy. He was cool but very LOUD and I didn't want people thinking I was into him because for I sure as hell was not for soooooo many reasons! Eventually my older cousin comes over and signals to him that if he dare try something on us he's a dead man. I was thankful because it worked and he left the table. I just kept thinking about my bf back home the whole time and wished he were there with me so I didn't have to go through all that crap. He found it funny when I came back and told him about it all last night though XD

It was finally over and we left with amazing memories! The next morning was rough because we still had to wake up early for breakfast but I was so sleepy and tired. We said our goodbyes to our friends we meet Saturday morning and ate our last breakfast at the Inn with our relatives. We packed up everything and thankfully rode to the airport with our buddy Junior :D But we checked out this cool flea market to kill some  time which he really did NOT have to do...not even sure if cab drivers can do that but he did and wew ere so thankful! My mom bought me a cute stripped fedora hat that I will most likely will be wearing a lot in the fall and winter :] The flight back was delayed but thankfully the air pressure pains in my ears were almost non-existant for some reason thank God! But there was more turbulence and our luggage wasalso delayed when we got to the DFW airport which sucked because everyone was ready to go home and rest. But overall, the trip was a success and it was a beautiful and unforgettable experience. Although I didn't stay as long as we intended to, I still had a blast!

My mom expects me and my sister to go again over the summer to stay with my aunt for 2 weeks so hopefully I'll be more organized when I inform everyone about that lol I know I screwed up big time on that too xP so sorry! Btw I hope you like the new theme :]

No more high schoooooool!

That's right! I've finally graduated :D Got my diploma and walked across the stage with my head held high! So damned relieved it's over. I honestly didn't even get all emotional like I expected to. But I'm kind of glad I didn't. I wanted it to be a happy day. Not one full of tears...even if they were of joy cuz I know once you get me going I won't be able to stop TAT

The ceremony was nice but waiting for it to start was such a pain in the behind! All the seniors were waiting outside in the hot smoldering heat and this was around 12pm which is usually the hottest fucking time of the day! WTF?! My make up was melted beyond recognition but my friends kept saying I looked fine so I just ignored it. But it didn't help that my high heels were digging into the grass each time I walked >:X I hate when that happens! We eventually started going inside the building and lining up in our rows until I started to feel very faint. I occasionally get these waves of nausea, fatigue, and just plan tiredness when either I'm dehydrated, didn't get enough to eat, or have been exposed to the heat for a long duration of time. Did I mention I think I'm anemic? My iron is always low so I kept having to sit down on the floor and I know I got tons of looks with everyone else standing around me but I truly could not give a rats ass. The room was spinning and my head started to feel really light and I doubt that they were giving out water to anyone so I was screwed!

Luckily for me we began to move before I could actually passed out and we sat down once we got to the stadium so I ended up feeling much better :3 After hearing loud families, left and right, holler for their relatives graduating the ceremony finally began. It kind of went by in a daze. I just wanted to hear my name and be done with it because I was so hungry and thirsty and I felt gross because of my sweaty back and neck. No one was smelling fresh in that stadium -___- Which reminds me, I would be the one so lucky enough to sit next to a guy who's breathe could knock out a pro wrestler in less than 2 seconds! It was Godawful and I wanted to scream at him for not knowing any better to at least brush his teeth the morning of graduation! My goodness, I still remember how it smelt.

After it was over, we walked out and everyone started to look for their families. Thing was, nobody in the graduating class was allowed to carry their cells or anything else into the stadium so it made it difficult for people to find each other especially if you didn't know the area. Guess who didn't quite know the area? heh heh. It took me approximately 45 minutes to find my people! & in that heat I was growing more and more furious at the situation. I just wanted to eat and go home! At last, I spotted out my sister, we went in the car, and drove the a Chinese buffet restaurant and pigged out like there was no tomorrow. I didn't get hundreds of dollars worth of graduation money like a lot of other people did but I did get a $30 gift card for Target from my mom's friend, a pretty bouquet of flowers from my friend Tam, and congratuation cards from my mom and sister :D All of which I was very thankful for! Not to mention all the people who gave me shout outs on facebook. You guys are so sweet! I would post pictures of me in my graduation gown but my sister never took them because she was having trouble with the camera :( It's no biggie though. My mom said she might order them from the photographers. I might post them on here...we'll see. Well I'm gunna go hang out with some friends at Pizza Hut then go to Roses house<3

Bai bai nao~

P.S.

Idk if anyone's noticed, but I'm really feelin Drake now for some reason. He's just amazing! Okay bye!

Wedding + Thank you!

Before I talk about the wedding I went to yesterday, I would like to say thank you so much to every single person who have, and still are, showing me love on my entry of feeling down about me not fulfilling gyaru lifestyle. I don't know how much I can say thank you for all of your kind and thoughtful words. It truly means a lot to me that that many people cared! A special thanks to HANA for taking the time to link the post to her blog :] I greatly appreciate it guys! & I will definitely do my best to continue being gal to the fullest, but of course I will take baby steps. Just know that you all are my reason for not giving up!

Onto the wedding! One of my sister's old high school friends invited us to a wedding not too long ago and we thought, what the heck? let's just go and show our support! I didn't really know much about the bride let alone the groom but I did know there would be food and that's all I really cared about! The card invitation said we should be there at 5:30, so we ended up finally finding the place but nobody was there. It was the reception hall. The dj told us that they were still getting married and we were like wtf? The card didn't tell us anything about where the actual wedding would be, we just assumed that that would be for mainly the family and the friends would show up at the reception hall. So we went and looked for this place and thankfully it wasn't too far from where we already were. It was being held near this pretty lake over a bridge right under a gazimbo looking thing. I took pics!

Look at the ducky! o(^ ^  )o Unfortunately we got there right after they were wedded husband and wife so people were already starting to head over to the reception hall where we just came from. We drove back and had a seat. It was nicely decorated too! Orange, neutral, nd very calming colors and the lighting was perfect!

We had food (duh lol). I mostly ate the mashed potatos and the chicken. & then there was the cakes! Ohhhh how yummy they were.

Yeah. Be jealous! XD hahaha! I love how the top two straberries were decorated as the bride and the groom ^ ^ & it was so de-freaking-licious! I love chocolate covered strawberries. Sadly, we had to leave a little early since my mom had to go to work later on that night and she was our ride home so we ended up leaving but I got a yummy gift bag that had chocolate treats and I got a big ass orange lolipop!

That was about it though. I'm going to another wedding later on this month, which I believe I've already said before so I'm excited for that! It's gunna be so much fun!

Yummy new yougurt shop + Kimbap

The other day me, my sister (who's now 20! *does a happy dance*) and my friend/old co-worker Tam all went to this new Korean yogurt shop called My Cherry. We weren't intending on buying any though because since it just had a grand opening that week and we already spent most of our money earlier that day, we just wanted to try samples of the cool flavors they had. I am a huuuuuge frozen yogurt fan, so having all these different options to sample from was delightful :D We ended up buying some lol! We couldn't really help ourselves. 

Pandan was gross. It had a strange aftertaste and tasted sorta like green tea ice cream which i'm not a fan of either...but for some reason i still kept eating it O.O i wish i could remember the name if the one on the left. It tasted kinda fruity and was super good!

Little explanation on the wall of how the place works :)

the yogurt machines. Some i guess are still being worked on, that's why the one in the middle is empty :/

The color scheme was really bright and lively too :]

Nomssssss!

I know where I'm spending most of my time and money at this summer :D Oh and I bought some kimbap at the store too. The last time I tried it was from my friend Seyoung. Personally, I liked hers more but this one was still nice and it was really cheap too! It had pineapple, crab, some green vegetable, carrots, and fried egg :3 it was deliciously nutricious!

My non-existant gyaru lifestyle

After reading certain forums on different websites over the past month or so, I've come to realize that being a gyaru in this country, especially my city, is pretty tough. It's even more tough if you tend to be self-conscious and don't have any support within your group of friends for this new style you'd like to partake in. Don't get me wrong, I definitely expected that this would be one of the main problems I would come to encounter throughout all of this but I didn't realize how hard it actually is when I am sitting there debating with myself whether or not I should pull off my false lashes and face probably getting teased, or not and end up not looking "gyaru enough" when I know I damn well need the practice. I know I'm not the only person out there who is in my shoes.

When I see gals who aren't from Japan, being a more open minded country in some aspects, I wonder what they go through mentally when they head outside of the comforts of their homes dressed the way they are dressed. I'm sure they have an everlasting amount of confidence that helps them go through with it that I so desperately wish I could have but if only I knew some sort of secret or tip on how to just do me without worry about everyone around me :/

Usually before I consider wearing a gyaru look, I ask myself, what will society think of this or that? And after taking away everything from my outfits that might make someone stare or comment, I end up with a typically cute outfit T___T In my eyes, everything will look good "gyaru wise" but to many others I'm sure they'll point and laugh, make smartass remarks, and ultimately cause my self-esteem to plummet which will definitely make me never want to go out in public dressed in such a way again! It's also why I haven't tried to get on everyday_gyaru on lj because I know if I ever hear that I'm on gyaru secrets and get bashed xcore like some of the ppl do on there, that would be one of the very rare times I would actually take offense to what some stranger over the internet had to say about me. I so much fear that happening so that I don't even attempt to take that risk. Call me a coward all you want, but this is more of a long term battle I've had with myself ever since I was in kindergarten. Being brutally judged and criticized is and has always been unbearably painful for me. After years of research on different styles I've finally found one that appeals to me the strongest and yet I can't even come to wear it because I'm too afraid of what people will think. Pretty pathetic, huh? Well that's the absolute truth. I don't claim to be gyaru and although I'm hoping one day I will, there's still a great possibility that it might not ever happen for me. I guess I just gotta keep on truckin'.

Another day at H-Mart

*Rises from the dead* Cheese Louis it has been quite some time since I last wrote on here now hasn't it? Sorry it took me ages to update. As some of you already know, I just finished being apart of my last high school play production which went rather well compared to how I expected it. Unfortunately for us, the actors didn't get any of the food that was being served which I thought was extremely unfair but it's whatever. I probably would have thrown it all up anyway because of my nerves. If you want to see the pictures, you can always check them out on my facebook photo album labeled "Theatreness" . . . real original ain't it? Ha! I'm too lazy to post them here too. Besides all that, things have just been chaotic as of late, so I haven't had the time to post on here like I used to before. But now that the worse part is over, I can try to begin again, yes? First off, just wanna say hi to my new followers. Sorry it's been so dead > < To make up for it, I'll tell you all how my weekend went :D I wanted to go watch Iron Man 2 with my sister Sunday but instead I decided to go hang out with some of my other friends at one of my most favoritest place in the world. Yes, that would be H-Mart, lol again XD It's really strange how each time I go over there it's with them. We had lots of fun and we ended up staying out longer than I had expected.

We got some sushi, of course, and it was so deelish! I haven't had some in so long either. Then we went to this lovely bakery that was in the same strip mall called Mozart.

They sell bubble tea and tons of cute baked goods, like cheesecake decorated with fruits and frosting and gahhhhh just yummy goodness! Wish I took a picture of at least one pastrie but they might have told me no photography like last time so I'll just leave that up to your imagination. We all got the white chocolate latte bubble tea which certainly did my body good.

We sat at "the gangster booth" as my friend Katherine put it because of all the graffiti and vandalism on the wall, table, and even ceiling so that I guess . . . well, we could look cool :D Haha! No not really but we wanted to contribute to the heap of autographs that nobody cares about and shout outs that were already there. Here's what I wrote . . .

lol if you want to understand why I wrote that last one, click this link to see wth I was talking about XD too funny! I bought some earrings for only 99 cents at this one store too and they're so cute! I was blown away at how cheap they were.

& I musn't forget how heavenly this soda was. I'd exchange it for a Sprite any day and if you really know me, you'd know how much I loooooove me some nice cold Sprite so that's saying something. All in all, I had fun with my girls. Definitely plan on doing it again sometime soon :]